Staying Grateful

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It can be a challenge to stay in gratitude when busyness overtakes.

I am so busy with the move right now that my life easily gets overshadowed with lists, boxes, to dos, schedules and the like.  The results of that are stress, bickering over stupid things, not eating well, worry and just a feeling of not being in synch–what should I do next with the general feeling and oh yeah, I need to do it all by myself!

Last night Mike and I dropped back and punted as they say.  We stopped in our tracks and talked about all the things were grateful for, how much we love each other and how we need to savor this move and these things we are doing right now–not get overtaken by them!  We have never bought a house together and set it up together–what a blessing that is!  The new house is perfect for us to share our life in and to share and live out our dreams in.  That is where we need to focus. AND we are not in this alone– we are a partnership in this and the other’s “go to person!”

Being grateful for everything we have to do, every box, every list, every schedule– we are 11 days away from the exit load.  We would not be experiencing this were it not for so many pieces falling into place the least of all being married to each other.

Grateful, grateful, grateful…


Paradigm Shift Nudge (PUSH)

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Sometimes no matter how much you try to shift you need a nudge or a push to really get the shifting going.  I have shifted in many regards so far this year but another biggie is happening as well.

I have had a great contract with a great company for about 3 years now.  Yep, that is a long contract.  It is sometimes fulltime, sometimes part, but it has been steady and that has been great.  It has however kept me from growing my other business perhaps as quickly as I would like, but it has been a real blessing in so many regards.

There have been whisperings of budget constraints/challenges, but yesterday I got the word..”unfortunately we have to seriously cut back your hours; we are over budget.” I still have a couple things to finish up and there will be some lingering of a few hours here and there but for the immediate future it will be almost non existent; particularly after October.  Sure it could change and there are some working towards changing this but I am not and cannot count on that.

So, besides moving this month out of state (our date for complete transition is Oct.1), I now find myself being able to focus on other things, other dreams, other avenues.  Although I am a bit scared and thrown, I am also very excited!  So today is mine. 🙂 and I have been taking advantage!  Catching up on personal things, focusing on how I can gain other clients for my business and also looking at the great opportunity I now have of not only moving but I could totally shift my focus on my other business should I choose.  I suspect the latter will be the path.

So yesterday some doors began to gently close (not lock, but shut a bit); but this morning my head is spinning with hope and possibilities. When I put out to the universe I wanted this to be a year of the paradigm shift, I had no idea what it would hold.  I still don’t..several months still ahead and energy is in full force. Exciting times!

Back “home” today

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After a couple of weeks at our new home and experiencing so much peace, beauty, simplicity (even in the chaos of a move), returning back has been a shake up.  This is my first day back in the house that is for sale.  Busy city, busy street, busy house, busyness everywhere and how quickly I just revert back.  Horns blowing, cars passing, phones ringing, rush, rush, rush. Long lists today of “got to’s”, running errands and still have some to run. Not feeling in synch, not feeling single threaded, not feeling grounded–chaos has reentered…………yuck!

It is funny how a location can throw you into habits.  Sort of like when you go back home to visit and all of the sudden you are the kid you were when you were 10 and you believe it so you act like it and everyone teases you the same, treats you the same, calls out your shortcomings the same.  If you always lost things when you were a kid, you of course still do.  If you were a little clumsy as a kid (aren’t so many of us?) you of are still so klutzy.  If you weren’t the smartest kid in the household (grade card wise) you still don’t quite “get it” (even though you are a successful adult and your performance reviews “prove it!” darn it.

We are so programmed to respond. It is not just personality.  As a matter of fact, many times I respond contrary to my values and my personality in certain situations.  It is surroundings…what is going on around me influences me so much.  Sometimes more than others; sometimes not at all.  BUT today it has ALOT.  I think part of it is expectation.  I expected to miss Indiana, I expected it to be crazy here, and I resp0nded accordingly.  I think part of it is wanting to go back so my mind is full of other thoughts that keep me from being focused on what I should be focused on.  I think part of it is that this does not feel so much like home anymore.  So much “stuff” is at the new house.  It is sterile here–house is all “staged” with non descriptive things. The new house feels more like home even though I have been in this house 11 years vs. 11 weeks with the other.

They say home is where the heart is.  Maybe as I am moving my stuff to Indiana pieces of my heart are going as well.  The things I am moving are things I love, things that make me feel comfy, secure and like it is home.  That is good to note-it really is about what is inside the 4 walls rather than the 4 walls.  That means stuff but also people, memories, etc.  As I take pictures and things I cherish the memories and love are transferring as well.  I am making that home.

I need to figure out how to still feel ok here right now.  I still have a few weeks and I need to keep focused, grounded, joyful and peaceful.  Maybe I need to focus on the memories that still surround me here; the love I have experienced here and the beauty that this place too offers even in it’s staged existence.  I need to keep feeling the heart and soul of this place; it will never completely move out of here for me so I need to use it now, count on it now, turn to it now to help me through the messiness of moving and going back and forth.  I need it to help me stay grounded here too while looking forward to a new beginning as well.




I’m back and shifting

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It has been so long since I have visited this blog.  I miss it and not quite sure how I let it slip so far away. But here I go, back at it.

Paradigm shifting for me is really happening.  I am so excited to have spent the last 2 weeks in our new home. Living out in the country really changes one’s perspective.  I feel better, more relaxed, focused, healthier, just BETTER!

The sunrises and sunsets are more meaningful to me here.  Perhaps because I can actually see them, but maybe it is because I take the time to see them out here.  I don’t need an alarm here in the new place; I just wake with the sun ready to go.  But not “go like in a panic go”—go with enthusiasm of the new day and the beauty that surrounds me. Playing with the dog seems like a “must do”, hanging bird feeders is just as important as logging on and checking email, watering my hanging plants is a daily occurrence of care and nurturing rather than a last ditch effort to save neglected dying plants.

Simple things are not simple here–they are complex, meaningful and greatly fullfilling.  It is those things that seemed so huge before that now seem to fade into the not so important things that used to overtake my being.

Don’t get me wrong, I am still working, still productive, still dreaming, still planning, but I feel like it is in better perspective.  The “work me” takes a break to eat lunch looking at the pond from the deck, the evening sees the laptop  being turned off so as to not miss a sunset, watching Jasmine run in the morning while the sun comes up breathes life into the new day.

Yes, this shifting is good; I feel like I am in the discovery phase looking forward to whatever it brings. Glad to connect with you again; what’s going on in your world?

Paradigm “Earthquake”

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My paradigm just isn’t shaking but it is in major earthquake mode!  So much so that I have not even sat down to blog for a few moments.  When I committed to a paradigm shift in January and made goals around it how was I supposed to know that the Universe would be so in favor of this that all things would move and shift and change before the 1st 1/2 of the year was even over!  Not that I am complaining; I find it exciting that not only am I on a path to shift but the “forces that be” are with me also.

Some shifts…my second business seems to be taking root; we got a real order for a store and that was is so exciting! Much of my shifting has to do with how I view my businesses–the day job business and the passion one.  It has been a real shift for me to focus on the passion business. You would think that would be easy given it is a “passion” and all, but reality for many of us is that we don’t focus on where our passion lies.  Focusing on shifting this has had to be a deliberate thing for me; it is still not easy, but I am seeing the benefits.

Another BIG shift… my last blog I shared about going away for the weekend (that was end of March) for our anniversary.  I blogged on marriage, love and all that stuff. Funny thing is that we did go away, but rather than wine and roses (although we had that too), we bought a house in Indiana with 6 acres of land.  Oh my goodness!

The move to Indiana has been in the planning and we actually committed to this as part of our paradigm shift for the year.  We will be closer to home (relationships #3), it is good for our finances (#4), and it definitely fits in with our exit plan goal (#7).  Moving to Indiana is also about simplifying which I am committed to. The house is in a little town of 3500. I can truly focus on my dog treat business as this is a town that has many small businesses and farmer’s markets.  There are so many things that are aligning with this.  I promise to continue to blog on this.  I find it inspiring just watching the pieces fall into place.  I have visioned this move and this house and this life style for quite some time.  It is outlined on mind maps in my office and right now, in 2011, I am being given the opportunity to step into it.

It is not to say it is not scary along with thrilling and exciting.  After all it is not a shift- it is an earthquake.  Everything under me is shifting, nothing is solid except for us walking into our dream together. Have you ever stepped into your dream or vision with one big gigantic leap?  How did it feel?  How did you feel?

Enjoy the Moment

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Looking at #12 of my Current Personal Commandments, “enjoy the moment”, it can actually be thought of as “part 2” of “Don’t Wait for Perfect”. For me, they go hand in hand.  Waiting for perfect causes me to want more, to want something that I have yet to attain, to focus on what I don’t have rather than what I do have.  “Enjoying the moment” is a way that I can, even in chaos, take a breathe and assess what is working right for me in this very moment.  I have a tendency to get caught up in what needs to be done, what I am not getting done, etc.  AND actually, in almost all circumstances, I have so much cause to enjoy my very present situation and life.  Focus on now, focus on what I am doing now, not in what I will be doing in 5 minutes, 1 week, a month or in retirement is the very essence for me to learn to live in joy, gratitude and serenity.  Taking a moment to breath in the goodness and breath out the anxiousness truly helps me to enjoy what I have right in front of me that I so often overlook.  It also helps me in striving for another personal commandment “one thing at a time”– but that is another blog for another day.

What about you?   Do you live in the here and now or are you waiting for perfect to enjoy? How do you shift to enjoying the moment?

Don’t Wait for Perfect

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“Don’t wait for perfect” is one of my commandments.  At first blush you might think that I do things 1/2 way or leave a lot undone but call it done.   Actually it is just the opposite.  Many times I do not put closure on something or move onto the next thing unless it is “perfect.”.  One of my friends shared a phrase “better done than perfect” with me years ago and at first I was really put off by it; I actually found it somewhat funny.  I mean I did not want to be someone to say “well at least it’s done; sorry that it fell apart”…

BUT as I examine my life and what my comfort zones are, I find that many times, waiting for something to be perfect is an excuse, crutch, explanation and also a disillusioning way of thinking.  It actually results in me living in the future all the time rather than in the present.  I can say/think things like “when this happens, then I will do this” or “when you do this  I will do that” or “when this is done and PERFECT, then I will enjoy life and relax”…  I have said all of these things and more in my life.  Waiting for things to be done before you enjoy your life or appreciate what you have in this moment is a way of robbing yourself over and over.  Rather, appreciate the now, bring closure when you can in the now, and allow yourself to come back to something to improve it later–but don’t put life on hold waiting for its perfect completion.

Live now and enjoy–don’t wait for perfect.